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Assalamualaikum and good day :)

this is my first attempt to do blog and stuff. And i really hope, this will not the last time i post. >tehee<

first and foremost, why did i do blog?

ok, tough tu tough.                                                                         

this year, have been the first year i go through uni life, study and basically life without my one special friend. Maybe we never meant to be friends pun but against all odds, we stick together. kinda hard taw without  you tapi i'll try. sad farah sad :/

and at 3rd january, i turned 22. phew, x sangke i survive this long. 

tough life ok?? dont judge me!

*fly away

ok, back to the story,

I act tough last year. tough sangat sampai nobody can notice that pond of tears yang kadang2 I held so tight behind my smile. 

I'm more of ambivert. being around people exhaust me. I taknak mention the days i spent feeling so sleepy sebab i have to handle or be in events yang involve ramai orang. They talk alot, They sweat and for all I know, I tak suka. 

meeting new people selalu buat my nerves wrestle. and Allah knows what flying inside my stomach. could be a freaking  ‎Pterodactylus i dont know. ppffttt.

and normally, she'll do the talking for me. So poise, so sweet sometimes, i wish i can have that sort of confidence. that vibes yang buat all people like you. something macam tulah.

And I cant count how many sleepless nights we have laughing and crying together. Serious talk, kadang2 I forgot we’re friends because we bond more than sisters do.

And then we broke up. Sakit taw? It was like somebody just punctured my heart with a sharp pin but the rush of blood kinda makes the cut bigger each time.  I bear that alone. Nobody, not even a single person understands. I cried for days, sleepless nights, wet bedsheet with tears all over it. I bear it alone.

And now, Im kinda feel ok again. I get that sometimes,we have to let  those people that we love go. Simply because they deserve better. J

2015, please be nice to me? And whoever that is aboard with me in my train of life, may Allah bless you people with happiness and blessings J