Assalamualaikum and
good day :)
this is my first
attempt to do blog and stuff. And i really hope, this will not the last time i
post. >tehee<
first and foremost,
why did i do blog?
ok,
tough tu tough.
this year, have been
the first year i go through uni life, study and basically life without my one
special friend. Maybe we never meant to be friends pun but against all odds, we
stick together. kinda hard taw without you tapi i'll try. sad farah sad
:/
and at 3rd january, i
turned 22. phew, x sangke i survive this long.
tough life ok?? dont
judge me!
*fly away
ok, back to the
story,
I act tough last
year. tough sangat sampai nobody can notice that pond of tears yang kadang2 I
held so tight behind my smile.
I'm more of ambivert.
being around people exhaust me. I taknak mention the days i spent feeling so
sleepy sebab i have to handle or be in events yang involve ramai orang. They
talk alot, They sweat and for all I know, I tak suka.
meeting new people
selalu buat my nerves wrestle. and Allah knows what flying inside my stomach.
could be a freaking Pterodactylus i
dont know. ppffttt.
and normally, she'll
do the talking for me. So poise, so sweet sometimes, i wish i can have that
sort of confidence. that vibes yang buat all people like you. something macam
tulah.
And I cant count how
many sleepless nights we have laughing and crying together. Serious talk,
kadang2 I forgot we’re friends because we bond more than sisters do.
And then we broke up.
Sakit taw? It was like somebody just punctured my heart with a sharp pin but
the rush of blood kinda makes the cut bigger each time. I bear that alone. Nobody, not even a single
person understands. I cried for days, sleepless nights, wet bedsheet with tears
all over it. I bear it alone.
And now, Im kinda
feel ok again. I get that sometimes,we have to let those people that we love go. Simply because
they deserve better. J
2015, please be nice
to me? And whoever that is aboard with me in my train of life, may Allah
bless you people with happiness and blessings J
